Hello dear friends and watchers!
hard to find the right words for this situation, so I'll just start typing and look, what my fingers have to say.
A few months ago, I moved and started a new job. Instead of fixing broken stuff, I'm BUILDING new stuff now ... that people can break later. ^^ The work ist fun, fullfilling, the work mates are nice and it pays well, too. BUT it's extremely time consuming. I have at least
12 work hours per day and I have to travel around the whole country (and sometimes abroad) to reach the construction sites.
This makes everyday life pretty hard and complicated and it was a very intense switch in my life.
Unfortunately, a lot of things I did before, I suddenly hadn't the time to do.
I was either working or on my way to work (I drove around 50000km in the last 9 months
) and even meeting with my friends and family became pretty difficult. And so was meeting my pooter-friends here, too! Most accommodations I slept didn't even had proper internet and even though I have a smartphone, I can't do much more than reading a few e-mails.
No day passed by, without I thought about all the nice and wonderful people I left here without a proper explaination and I felt REALLY bad about it. I just kept on and hoped, that they maybe were able to cope with the situation easier than I was.
They, my parents gave me a letter.
It came from my closest, most beloved and greatest friends here, telling my parents (the only adress they had from me) how much they miss me and how worried they are about my wellbeing. Many manly terars were shed
and I finally (that was about time!
) realized, that I can't leave all those wonderful, caring and precious people behind. I still feel miserable about all this and I curse my ignorance and selfishness.
But instead of castigating myself, I'll use my time better and start being there for my beloved friends again!
I'll not be here every day, BUT I'll try to be here at least once a week for some laughters, digital huggles and nice chit-chat.
My dear friends - there is no way I can ever thank you enough for being there for me.
But I can start right now: Thank you!
Yours truely Eric